 I'm thinking of a sandwich, I mean number, between one and one hundred eighty... |
Why? It affects me more than I'd usually like to admit (or would've guessed) to read web sites containing casual and harsh critiques of my style and body image.
Not pictures...I like those and, anyways, a picture isn't in and of itself a critique. I'm really just referring to conversations about how I look.
I think I still have a choice here. Kitchen too hot, wise man can leave. I could change my involvement in this music with relatively minor consequences. (Disregarding, for a moment, the impact this would have on my friends) I have a career in software. I enjoy web development and am allowed some creativity. I am able to write music for myself and be comfortable with few others hearing it. And I don't rely on the music-I-love-to-make for income. Just for artistic expression.
I realize that personal criticism goes hand-in-hand with art that is shared publicly with others. The enjoyment of my current musical life, however, would be seriously degraded in the rare event that I begin to encounter these sites via my everyday web shuffle. Ugh. And you know, I'm not completely dense, I have an awareness that due to my involvement in music I'm being judged by my looks, more so, than say, these amazing fellows. (For those who don't know...they're pretty famous programmers)
I suppose I could go the whole Milton Babbit "Who Cares if You Listen? " (Feb. 1958) route. But I think that's not as applicable here. I'm currently interested in and engaged in a musical/cultural sphere where style and body consciousness are not exactly as ancillary to the experience as I would like to believe.
Damn, yo.: you say. Just be a DJ. Yeah, I know, I know. :)
An option to consider: I could be less web-savvy and not risk finding these things.
Or...alternatively, I could eat less and exercise.
;)